Monday, December 18, 2006
the speaky plant
conversations
some turn soft, like fruit, and rot
some lines like carvings in stone stay
some are lost, a few are banished,
most are forgotten, some are cherished
but your conversations are not you
and mine are not me
and we would be lost
were it not for the cherishing
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
mirrorspeak/song of the scorpion
what does it matter, little grasshopper
that you can talk and sing
of sun and grass,
your words on our deaf ears play
all we have are claws which grip
and an acid laden tail
to speed you on your way
black is our hide
and dark is our heart
here no sunbeams play
sunshine and song we despise,
be warned ye who try to mend
our gloomy ways
hiding ,hidden, hid
among stone, rock and cracks
we like to chatter in the shade
be nice to us and
we'll sting you to death
for we are the fallen grey
alone we wish to seek
and keep the sorcery
the magic of the worlds
alone we will dance
at the twilight sublime
at the fire mystic
us alone, none else
and we refuse to rhyme
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
they say
So let's eat all those doughnuts before they self-destruct !!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
so far
saw a car with neon underlighting
had to plod through the rain to nearby food place to buy tiffin.
did you know that Damascus steel was manufactured in India, and that the complete 1984 movie is available online ?
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
help request
do help out and/or pass the info on
link here
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
babbling brook boltoi
In metaphysics, the notion that earth and all that's on it is a mental construct is the product of people who spend their lives inside rooms. It is an indoor philosophy.
Friday, November 03, 2006
video and pic
this one's a good video. It's a guy fast-motion video of a guy driving from San Francisco to New York, shot from behind the driver's seat, I think. The road trip footage is pseudo-nostalgic - meaning it makes me nostalgic, though I've never done that sort of thing before. The cities in fast-forward motion are beautiful clusters of glowing lights, the countrysides are just as beautiful. Take a look, if you have time.
Labels: drawing
Thursday, November 02, 2006
pastime
They're showing Ffolkes ( North Sea Hijack in the U.S.A ) on * tv - but family is watching the usual wailing soap
oh, the agony
this video is terribly entertaining
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
for douglas
Just watched the movie version of the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy .
The film is a tribute to Douglas Adams in a way the Phantom Menace to the original three Star Wars wasn't. The film-maker is definitely human and the undertaking more than. Hence no criticism. Magrathea is wonderful.The Vogons are done well. The Vogon Ships are a work of art. Halfway down the movie I started giggling uncontrollably at seeing the whole thing come alive.... on tv, that is.
Two things I loved - is the title opening with Journey of the Sorcerer song with its eerie thrumming ( which wouldn't have been a surprise if I'd read about the original radio shows - apparently, they used it regularly ) and Zooey as Trillian ( sigh! ).
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
horse sacrifice
if you wanna ride
don't ride a white horse
Laid Back
"White horse"
(Tim Stahl/John Guldberg)
Pic lifted from here. If the costumes seem out of place, look again , it's not the ashwamedha
And now for some old favorites -
Growing up, there was a time when there was only one channel on t.v and programmes were made with the intention of doing more than capture eyeballs.
Roshan Seth as Nehru in the Bharat Ek Khoj series is a memory that carries over very pleasantly - the Nehru topi and the pleasing drone sitting right next to Swami and friends , Girish Karnad's Turning Point and Prannay Roy's The World this Week. With the internet, it is more or less impossibe to leave anything completely behind.
this & this will cheer you up ( or make you cry - depending on your style )
In the age of mirrors of mirrors, I got this from soumyadip who got it from somewhere else who ....
And in case you're curious, they chants are from RV 10.129 and RV 10.121 respectively
Friday, October 20, 2006
fuel oil from plasic bags
fuel oil from plastic bags ? yes, it's true - a couple are also making money from it.
truly, the mix of technology and human creativity is just wonderful ...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
the short lebowsky
you HAVE gotta watch this
I did, and it f*kin blew me away.
nsfw, btw
Now, if you think you're done there, check this too
Monday, October 02, 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Thursday, September 28, 2006
whalesong
Don't call me Ishmael.
It's 10.30 and I'm listening to recorded whale noises (www.whalesong.net). It's supposed to be relaxing. eBay has 'Recorded Whale Noises :Various Artistes' on sale - my first impression was various artistes !!! how crass !!! - then, as the realization dawned, it became various artistes !!! how cool !!! -
They sound like cows, these whales .. drawn out cow noises ...
I don't want mom to waking up terrified thinking that a cow has got into the house, so, after designating tomorrow as listen-to-the-whales day, operations shall cease for now.
Labels: drawing
Monday, September 25, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Johnny be god
here's a link to an article which tells us why the world we know today is a gift from John von Neumann.
Btw, it's pronounced 'noy-men'
and yes, he's one of the gods
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
my very own
It's not really 'mine' by any stretch of imagination. But it's mine, like the Earth is mine.
A really wonderful video, an almost religious experience ( which _could_ be 'coz of the Pink Floyd )
We really under-estimate science...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
on a tombstone
Do not pass by my epitaph, traveler.
But having stopped, listen and learn, then go your way.
There is no boat in Hades, no ferryman Charon,
No caretaker Aiakos, no dog Cerberus.
All we who are dead below
Have become bones and ashes, but nothing else.
I have spoken to you honestly, go on, traveler,
Lest even while dead I seem loquacious to you.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
Thursday, September 14, 2006
e-mail forward
quite scary
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Sun is rising as usual in the east. I'm standing here outside the school,waiting for my 10 yr kid.He studies in class 2. Only this year he could get admission into the school. For the last 5 years admissions were closed for the general category students.School bell rings. I can see a lot of happy children coming out of the gate, I waited for half an hour and my kid came at last after other children. Genaral students are not allowed to cross the gate unless other OBC/SC/ST students have crossed the gates. OBC/SC/ST fathers drive away their children in classy cars. But I have to walk back home with my kid a 5km stretch. I lost my car some years back when Govt. came with a rule that general people have to deposit a tax equal to cost of their cars. Failing which I had to sell the car.As far as buses are concerned,the seats in buses are reserved for OBC/SC/ST .So no place there also. After walking some 5km in scorching heat I finally reached home. It was wednesday … shit , no electricity.Every Mon,Wed,Thu,Sat is power
cut in the houses of General category population, so that SC/ST/OBC can be uplifted by providing them with every opportunity and in that consideration electricity is an important factor.
Its 10:00 pm in night no electricity at home. Its very hot inside the four
walls of home. So I dare to step out in park with my wife and kid. I seated
myself with my family on a secluded bench in garden. It was hardly 5 min.A
guard came to us strolling in the park. He asked me what caste you belong to. I said with some hesitation .. G..General.He asked me to pay a fine of
Rs.200 and get out of the park.
My Fault…
The bench I was sitting on was meant for again the SC/ST/OBC. For their
upliftment peace of mind is on essential things. So govt came with this
decision to Reserve benches for them.Kudos to them…
Its early in the morning …the newspaper wala just knocked the door. I took
the newspaper and started reading, its independence day. I never used to
forget this days some 20 yrs back. My kid hardly knows wat 15th august is
,because I never told him any stories of greatness of our country or
anything realted to country.I don't feel like telling him the failures after freedom.
On front page of newspaper, in a corner their is a news about a OBC member getting 6 months impriosonment in "BAL SUDHAR GRAHA" from a juvenile court for murdering and raping a six year old girl. Yes the rules have been amended, since the last 5 years.The Culprit was a 25 year old OBC so age relaxation was provided for trial of crime. So he was taken to juvenile
court, since there is an age relaxation for OBC/SC/ST.
About 11 am some one gave me the BAD news about demise of one of my neighbour and friend Mr.Mehta. I went to his house for condolence next day
,his body was lying there still rotting in the heat. I asked his son about
the Cremation .His son told me " Many reserved category have died yesterday so we are not getting entry to cremation ground " . This rule is the latest from Govt.Where the seats in cremation ground will be reserved for SC/ST/OBC for their upliftment.
Finally next day Mehta ji was creamted. I could see sun seeting through the
Flames burning a liberated Body, liberated from caste n creed.I was surprised sun still sets in the west?
It was about 9 pm , I was about to sleep in my bed my son came to me with innocence in his eyes,inquisitively he asked me the question
"What is reservation?"
I asked him "where u heard that?"
he suddenly burst in tears .. i asked him to keep..quiet
But i could listen through his sobs "mujhe bhi reservation chahiye(i too want reservation)".How can i convince him its no other toy in the market i can get for him?He kept crying that night ,claiming many of "his classmates have got reservation".
To make him quiet i said ok , i'll buy you reservation at your next B'day.
HOPE he understands the bloody concept soon .
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New York, New York
Start spreading the news
I'm leaving today
I want to be a part of it, New York, New York
These vagabond shoes
Are longing to stray
And make a brand new start of it
New York, New York
I want to wake up in the city that never sleeps
To find I'm king of the hill, top of the heap
These little town blues
Are melting away
I'll make a brand new start of it
In old New York
If I can make it there
I'll make it anywhere
It's up to you, New York, New York.
To find I'm king of the hill, top of the heap
These little town blues
Are melting away
I'll make a brand new start of it
In old New York
If I can make it there
I'll make it anywhere
It's up to you, New York, New York.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Monday, September 11, 2006
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Thursday, September 07, 2006
the Slightly Warm & Always Up club : Memberships now open
from 'Almost Famous'
WILLIAM
(ruefully)
Well, it was fun.
LESTER BANGS
They make you feel cool. And hey. I
met you. You are not "cool."
WILLIAM
I know. Even when I though I was, I
knew I wasn't.
LESTER BANGS
That's because we are uncool! And
while women will always be a problem for
guys like us, most of the great art in
the world is about that very problem.
Good-looking people have no spine!
Their art never lasts! They get the
girls, but we're smarter.
WILLIAM
I can really see that now.
LESTER BANGS
Yeah, great art is about conflict and
pain and guilt and longing and love
disguised as sex, and sex disguised as
love... and let's face it, you got a
big head start.
WILLIAM
I'm glad you were home.
LESTER BANGS
I'm always home! I'm uncool!
WILLIAM
Me too!
LESTER BANGS
(leveling)
The only true currency in this bankrupt
world if what we share with someone
else when we're uncool.
WILLIAM
(distraught)
I feel better
LESTER
My advice to you. I know you think
those guys are your friends. You want
to be a true friend to them?
William takes a deep breath. Looks at the research cassettes and
notebooks. The empty page.
LESTER BANGS
Be honest and unmerciful.
(beat)
You're doing great. Call me later is
you want. I'm always up.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Friday, August 25, 2006
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
book/movie review : The Beach
a bunch of junkies set up camp on an island which has a beach with white sand and a poppy field next door with armed guards who enthusiastically discourage prospective tenants by shooting them in the head . Some more junkies join them.
The long of it :
our hero ,friends and the odd girl (odd, not queer ) manage to get past these guards (surprise) and join the group on the island and everybody lives happily ever after. No wait, that would be too boring and would cut the movie in half
To keep the story going , our hero valiantly screws someone else's girlfriend ( all the bikini-ed chicks are someone else's girlfriends coz he hasn't brought his girlfriend to the party - smart move, that ) - and kills a baby shark.
The baby shark's mother bites the leg off of one of the guys, partially in retaliation, and partially out of being bored to death out of having nothing to do
and oh yeah, I forgot to mention, the movie starts off in a cheap hotel room where one of the junkies gives our hero the map to the island, and then kills himself , making a bloody mess in the process. This and the shark-biting-leg scene make up for much-needed variety in color in the otherwise white-sand-white-sky-blue-sear-blue movie.
Baby-face Leo makes it impossible to take the whole living-outside-and-beyond-civillization thing seriously ...
As usual, the book is better.
The book is about a bunch of junkies who find running a house and family, even on a beach with nintendo gameboys around, is not very addictive and not easy at all .. that you have to keep going to town for supplies .... and that the thing about 'there are good neighbours wherever you go' came out of some stoned hippie's skull , whose friends should've fed him to a shark at the first given opportunity
The moral of the story is that the drug trade is doing pretty well, and that if stock from the Beach makes it to the mainland, prices around the world might just come down ...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
exorcise
six-to-eight months have gone by. Meaning has returned, so has sense, the scars are more or less healed, but the happy-sad memories come in waves once in a while - reminding you of the immense happiness of those days . You sit at work unable to concentrate, and play little animated games while your boss watches helplessly - yet you are surer of yourself and at peace. you are adrift, looking for a ride to hitch. and you still keep looking back while the memories get smaller, shorter and dryer with each passing day until finally you can look back and not shake -and then you can now start removing the pieces of shrapnel - the thorns, one by one, piece by little piece ...
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
update
net access, like a butterfly , dances within reach, and flies off again
so bandobast must be made of the sticking pins and glass cases
or else how will the poor bob survive ?
From the day-dreams and paranoia section : there was a time when I was convinced that the world would soon become out of a William Gibson book. Nowadays, I remain convinced , but remarkably indifferent too ...
The crying need of the hour is a warm gooey donut. I will also settle for a piece of cake, if providence should will it. Or maybe a Starbucks regular - black with no cream or sugar
Brazil fans stand among us, overwhelm us, but my gang stands united behind Argentina, so will I
and now, like the blue whale that comes above water for a few mammoth gulps of air and then returns back to the murky green-and-blues ....
*splash*
Friday, June 02, 2006
mumbai signs
- MMRDA
(authority for road construction projects )
"Bear with us"
- BSE
Saturday, May 27, 2006
haggard
fell ill, recovered
coughed and cold-ed
came home in BEST bus once
saw the da Vinci Code movie
complained about the traffic
complained about the 'net
still complaining about the 'net ...
Thursday, May 18, 2006
from the wilderness
I now know that there are places where internet access is a purely mythical
concept.
Help !!!!
....
am going through the pains of withdrawal . I get on the net once a week. I'm a storm of raging fury and abject helplessness. I get on the net once a week !!!! I think I'll go cry now
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
Sunday, April 16, 2006
will I know
to crunch snow underfoot ?
to ride in the night
on empty roads
and grudgingly arrive
to a warm snug home ?
to watch the beloved trees
bloom and blossom and then
shed their leaves in a twilight symphony
fading into the stark solo of winter ?
familiar faces, cherished places
friends made at the last moment
will I remember them still ?
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Friday, April 14, 2006
the boomerang turns in flight
Semisonic has a song about it.
So many memories that run past my mind like little rivulets of gold. So many that I can't help but turn bitter that I can't hold them all in my mind.
And a fear that they will never amount to anything more than memories.
That one day the future, I'll look back on all those little memories and decide that they were just a figment of my imagination.
I'm alone for atleast ten cubicles in each direction, barring the small pocket of night-shift-ers five cubes to the south.
My bus will turn up in an hour and half, and it wont' wait for me.
In all this little limitations of time and space, my mind floats peacefully on the tangent realm where memories live.
I've forgotten a lot that has happened in the last year or so.
Packing involves scavenging, and disturbed artifacts return to the surface in the process.
And trigger of the little rivulets of happy sad little memories.
But I can't stay and talk about it how things have changed and I have changed and talk about the things that did the changing with relish and child-like doting. I got to run.
for it's closing time.
and Semisonic's got a song about it.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Friday, April 07, 2006
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
decay
- a silver stream of memory flowing on the black marble of an empty past - pink floyd's 'Pigs' - it brings to mind empty tubelighted corridors with doors on one side and the silent night on the other, littered hostel grounds and stark deserted vastness dotted with sun-burnt shrubs and dust.
The past holds so much promise . But only in retrospect
The empty wine bottles stand by the sink. The jalapeno peppers have been taken over by a visiting fungus. The vessels in the sink laden with yesterday's soup have become fair-grounds for horde of teensy roaches which run around the roach traps with enviable ease. Dinner has ceased to be the piping hot and wholesome affair it used to be and has become a bony scarecrow-like substitute made out frozen and thawed bread and plastic curries.
So it is with the whole place. Alice's secret garden has been taken by scrooges in cold glasses and shabby hands creasing their ledgers and motley fools in gaily coloured wear, of the big white rabbit there's no sign. Nor of the Red Queen and her quirky lines.
Today's dal holds promise - pungent, evil, and smirking wicked. The blackened red-chillie lends it character. The green chillies I threw in to keep it company provide a tangy freshness which promises to keep you on your toes. The coriander, of course, makes the whole thing look green and resemble a forest. Hurray for sambar.
Sanity's middle name is sambar.
And Wodehouse. Lemme see if I can get my hands on one ....
Saturday, April 01, 2006
rind
can we go back to being strangers again ?
Friday, March 31, 2006
Thursday, March 30, 2006
seen
Last words of Gen. John Sedgwick, spoken as he looked out over the parapet at enemy lines during the Battle of Spotsylvania in 1864.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
season d'etre
The darling buds
have popped their heads
and broken rank-and-file
the snows are melted
the skies untinted
and gone is the land's ice-cold veil
Spring is on its way
but the snowflake is melting
into oblivion
the carboy of acid sits
the sunny clime is wasted
on the bright flowers that dare
to seek its dark depths
winter was the season cool
frozen squirrels and dark dead wood
like a nippy crab with quick claws
that ends up on someone's dinner plate
the wintry sunlight fades
with my sting laced with arachnid-hate I wait
for the next sun-drenched wretch
to walk my way
the winter's cold
lies spent and old
like an old man's unheard refrain
the sunbeam and the yellow blooms
mock it with child-like disdain
Monday, March 27, 2006
how to bug people
friend : what is obvious ?
me : okay, then it's not that obvious for you ...
Sunday, March 26, 2006
just when
the highest and lowest purpose of life remains what it always was: survival
rage
with an oaken desk, and a window overlooking lush green gardens with hedges and a river flowing by
Saturday, March 25, 2006
solitary
It's after lunch at the office, there's no one around. The corridors lie un-stalked - people don't seem inclined to. Maybe because it's friday.
Alan Parsons Project - The Definitive Collection. It's a two-CD pack. It cost quite a bit - more than what I'd typically have spent on music, but my trip here is winding down, and I'm making impulse/emotional buys. This would be the time to ask me for a big favor.
The cover has the picture of a seashore, with a half-sunken aquarium with 1. a broken porcelain vase 2. a statuette of a topless someone 3. a couple of starfish 4. a toy soldier in red uniform coat and cap
Friday afternoon. After lunch. Empty corridors and a sunny deserted patio. The children aren't out playing. Traffic has started trickling in on the road outside. In a couple of hours, the road will be choked with cars. As the light fades, so will this corporate section of the city bleed out people
I like aquariums. I had one a long time back. It was very rewarding to line the glass floor with sand, and fix in the plants and watch the fish swim around exploring the place, and at some subconscious telepathic level, my heart would tell the fish, "Meee !! all that you see!!! I made it all for You!! you like ? "
( choice of upper-case letters not incidental )
There's a bunch of yellow petalled flowers sitting in a clear plastic cup of water on the shelf . They are from last weekend. Last friday, when I got to my desk, there was a long-stemmed yellow-petalled flower sitting on my desk ( and on everybody else's too, they were put there by the Management, there's no romantic angle in the story, except for the stapler .. )
The petals were closed around each other in a tight embrace. After putting them in the plastic cup of water, they opened up. Now they are of the texture of dried old paper, and their edges are turning brown.
And the water. Swirling water gently moving the stalks of plants & slender weaving fish. The whole thing was terribly harmonious and soothing. The first chapter of Moby Dick mentions the how the narrator would seek out large water bodies for succor when the day-to-day existence was getting too irksome.
Civillized -from old european - means to put in a box.
Civillization is a huge machine clunking and wheezing. Culture is the software,the programs which describe/prescribe/limit the possibilities of each component. There is only so much 'Culture' one can take, hence the large water bodies. Or small ones, captive in amber colored glass.
A friend had asked me once, do you believe in 'God is Truth', or do you believe in 'God is Good' ?
Well of course, if there is a God, he/she/it would definitely be good, by definition, but you notice, the question has Good with a G.
I figure the former people are usually not people persons, because a lot of human interaction does not follow teutonic correctness in purpose and execution, and is not usually consistent. These are the people who are usually left wondering what to say next, or rather, what would be the proper thing to say next, while the latter kind are already yakking away with consummate ease. Hence, not people-person types.
The latter are the kind to believe in co-incidences, lottery tickets and mercy.
Of course, I'm deliberately not answering the question.
The blog explosion is percieved to amplify creative stuff coming out of the heads of the people. It should ideally create a 'sea' of creative parts which can then be searched and components isolated and re-assembled into the next literary Picasso or van Gogh(although I personally believe it's headed more towards Dali)
I believe it simultaneously dilutes the content.
The hypothesis of a million monkeys sitting at keyboards was never tested for lack of infrastructure. Not so anymore.
Differently, an explosion of 'creativite material' is supposed to stem from folks reading stuff on other peoples' blogs, and deriving ideas and inspiration from that. Then creative output is then expected to spiral, re-re-inforcing itself and riding on positive feedback, to touch the upper most levels, wherever applicable.
But mostly, posts tend to be echoes - rehashes of material read elsewhere, opinionated rehashes, language translations, or irrelevant and/or redundant altogether. The spiral tends more to diminish as it races to cover all versions/ possibilities/ combinations of ideas.
The next work of Shakespeare, spontaneously created out of synergy of a million minds ( 75% of them seeking porn, sadly ), is of no use if it is distributed over ten million blogs.
In the meanwhile, to restore lost faith in technology, there's Flickr...
Electronic Arts, the video game company, has made a game based on the Godfather novel. The Don, Sonny and Hagen look like they did in the movie. For someone who has a Mafia logo embedded in his brain, I find the new development, well, disturbing. I am going to find having to shift my affections to be a little wrenching. The demo clips I saw on the net seem glorious indeed. I have a friend who would read the Godfather before all exams. Godfather quotes are cool. The word consigliori is cool
We of course, have to forget that the good Don Corleone was a crook.
Leaving Mafia for this, would make sense. However, Mafia is my first love ( I am irrevocably geek ), thus my dilemma rages ...
It's past midnight and I need to get some sleep. So does my post. But I will not let it get any, instead, I'm going to sic it on y'all.
And oh, I'm clean