i can now admit to myself that i need more space and more consistent routines to thrive, and that the onus of running interference to the rest of the world while i get mine, is upon me, although i don't know how i will do both.

it's like one is firing the camera shutter and then running to get into the frame before the flash goes off. still... cards dealt play mumble mumble

an old book has resurfaced, that i had read and discarded as too shallow. one passage caught my attention - about a Tibetan medicine man in bangalore treating the author for respiratory problems. hmmm.... man thinks like me 

modern medicine is a side effect of industrial culture. the industrial economy reduces humans to single point sources of economic output. the industrial society stratifies to enforce this role as early as possible, and tries to keep it going as long as possible. the so-called 'metabolic syndrome' is an offshoot of this behaviour - of running a complex system such as a human for a long enough time without required 'maintenance', or as we humans call it, rest, rejuvenation, and recreation. Very unlike machines which require fuel and lubrication regularly, and replacement of parts at regular intervals, human 'machines' are regenerating, and do so by wholistic reconnection with nature, people, and purpose, something the industrial economy doesn't understand, or chooses not to. as a result of its insistence to run humans as machines, we have humans with appendixes cut off, metal pins in their bodies holding together worn out bones, tired pancreas not allowed to rest, but forced to work till destruction... entire generations living on low quality nutrition marketed as the exact opposite,  while machines rob us of the need to use our legs , speeding us downhill to a surfeit of 'metabolic syndrome' ...

rationally there are safeguards in place for every scheme, and yet, the leviathan's teeth always find a way to morally and physically insulate themselves from the effect of the ideology they impose on the rest. in theory, every process has quality control and foolproofing, and in practice, each of these are circumvented whenever needed . in practice, systems exist in a state of anergy, and failure is the default mode . the creation of digital machines has created an economically better-off-than-before, but nonetheless intellectual serfs.

economics is politics, politics is the game theory of class warfare, collective bargaining etc, which has roots in biology and physiology, and degrees of freedom, which has roots in biology, and chemistry, and geography. ultimately we are sophisticated cavemen whacking each other on the head with symbolic clubs of large cars, designer labels, swanky apartments etc, while laying a larger claim to the mammoth carcass..

surely, there must be some evolutionary progress made beyond this by us over so many years ..... ?

not compassion and love - these are part of the mammalian chassis. 

transcending is just having your state machine become a cycle or a part of a larger state machine. this has always been the case. transcending requires the larger state machine to be a new one.

advaita something something ?

traditional medicine something something  ?

a good measure of devotional practice is that after some time, it should make one light of heart and joyous in disposition at all times, and the rituals merely become outbursts of expression of this joy. the exerciser eventually starts enjoying exercise and relapses into it whenever circumstances, like muddy water, clear up after a time. it must be the same with any practice. else it's an imposition and or addiction.

the sea of difference between addiction and addition is just the letter 'c'