we must deal in fables, things are fables before they are true
things are dreams before you can hold them in your hands
a faint whisper a face in a hazy cloud a flash of light from the horizon
then it builds and builds until before you it stands
I have been given regular glimpses and hints,only now I can recognise them as such. But thats it.
I also now understand I cant read my way into this, so some energy is freed up not reading esoterica.
Family and job has me in a chokehold but turining into it, I find effort gives me joy . Clawing back up from convalescence, eveerything is a new life breath. Fasting, and some prayer, i now see as power tools to work this magical body of ours.
Wont say I understand what you are doing specificlly but the larger strokes i can understand.
The journey always starts by inverting the landscape .
Earlier folks used to go sit in a shamans tent and fast until visions come, whenever they were spiritually ill.
We have to make our own.