sometimes , you meet life 

you blink

then it's twenty-five years later

in other news

the beanstalk attempted to bake bread again

the beanstalk added a lot of dutch cocoa powder

the beanstalk forgot to add sugar

the bread came out amazingly well

in shape, texture, and sponginess

looks chocolatey, 

tastes like a naan

"If you think this is your country, your government, your people, then you've completely misunderstood the nature of the beast. Remember Hobbes ... are you a person or an cell in a leviathan ?"

The agent looked steadily at Jeepley. The record of traces and sightings lay on the table between them, with its worn cover facing up.

 it's not a line

but a cloud

to cross

one side ends in stone

ether waits on the other

side

Jeepley goes around

 Jeepley got off the boat and tested his legs on terra firma, glad that they held, then quickly walked to dock office. It was deserted,  as was the road outside - no taxis or buses. The faded timetable in the office  said the minibus was expected at 4 and he had an hour to kill by then. He sat down on the single bench, and looked out over the water. The plan was still going as per schedule.

The minibus dropped him off at a section of the road which looked exactly the same as any other, while the driver gave him instructions  . Walking through two wooded plots, which he was sure was someone's estate- he was trespassing no less, he turned left at the heap of coloured rocks, and climbed up the slope to the cottage. It came into view after a turn in the road. It was a pretty road, with large trees on either side, and the sky was blue,   that he forgot all of the City  as he huffed up the path,   with  an eye on the loose stones.

The key was under the mat. He let himself in. He met the other guests at tea time. A pair of glasses read a book,  immobile except to occasionally turn a page . A grey sweater smoked a cigarette on a chair in the garden.A squirrel ran up a tree, being late for its tea perhaps.

 The housekeeper manifested in the kitchen at sunset, and began to cook. At the dinner table, Jeepley looked around to see if a Queegeeg would show, chuckling mentally.  

The ship was expected to cross the town in a day or two. Lots would happen then. Until then there was dinner and a walk.

when I read Kim I of course put myself in his shoes, now when i read any holmes book, it gives me a safe predictable world where truth and good triumphs. to have kim grow up, have a son ( me too), and then disappear into the hills makes me feel like I am losing myself ,that i am somehow free no more, and will have to work to the whims of the world from now on.. I feel like every bus ride is a imposition, so every car ride, every interaction forced, and every meal a passing compromise. Escape comes in the form of books (like the Game), or tv now and then, but then the chains slip back. An inversion has occurred - earlier, I used to throw off the yoke of work at home, and would be free. now like air, that  yoke has permeated every moment , and it's not just work, but the responsibility of it ,for others, for small ones, and old... the self is feeling so neglected

 when some members of the organisation behave not-according to the rules of the organisation, the rest of the organisation can bring them back on track, provided such action is provisioned in the rules. when all members act in violation of rules of the organisation, it goes into suspension, or ceases to be, as per its own rules....

 time to re-read accelerando, singularity sky, halting state, and also atrocity archives, cos.. y'know

who the F has my halting state !!!! i hate you you worm

oh wait, also anathem and diamond age. maybe skip ahead and read seven eves or something

 time to jettison the meek personality

 when you attempt to fit the entire universe inside of your own head

you find yourself halting

and by a curious quirk of recursion

you are it

you are a fixed point where the function of the universe makes itself/you