if i don't know who you are, then i don't know who i am

- silicon valley

we overreact for the small stuff, coz the big stuff -the life that right job the good house the family and children - the joy is so pure and sublime that we know deep down that such beauty is not meant for the mud and dirt of the earth and our lives, and so we know deep down it was a gift , and so we don't cry too much for it, coz the only options are to break or move on.
so we never cry for the big stuff.
the small stuff ? that's different.


i realised something was wrong when ,even in my daydreams, i found myself crying